Life IS Beautiful
After being raised in a neighborhood where its not safe to walk around even when the sun is out, after attending schools where there was violence, weapons, shootings, & bomb threats, after being called dumb,stupid, ugly,foolish, after being accused of things I’ve never even attempted to do, after being slapped left & right for no logical reasons, after crying myself to sleep every night, after praying & wishing that I could just be a part of a normal family ,after counting down those days until I turned 18 & would be free, after working my ass off in school not even for myself but just to prove something, after getting caught up with things I know I shouldn’t be doing, after going to college just to realize its not gonna be the fun walk in the park I expected it to be, after failing classes & almost dropping out, after opening my eyes to how many fake ass people walk around me, after losing all hope & faith, after suicidal thoughts, after having to go to counseling, after hitting rock bottom,you come to realize that….
At one point I took a wrong turn, at one point I lost all sight of my dreams, at one point, I gave up on me & the life I was given as a gift, so I smile….
I smile because I’m alive, I smile because I’ve made it this far, I smile because after the rain comes the sun, I smile because there is a tomorrow & even better a today, I smile because the only direction I have left to go in is up, I smile because I see hope, I see the light at the end of the tunnel, I smile because I remember that I and onlyI have the choice to determine how my life turns out.So I take charge…
I take charge. I stand up, I brush the dirt of myself, I dry my own tears, I take that first step. I fix myself up, I realize that even though I am alone there is a God, I learn to love myself- flaws & all, I find moments of happiness to hold on too, and let go of the negative ones, I face each demon of my past & I conquer them, I let go of the past, I stop trying to figure out the future, and I focus on today, I get rid of the ones who don’t give a fuck & tear down the walls for those who do, I forgive my enemies & even more myself.
I make it to the top of the world & realize what I’ve been blind to my whole life…
“After, one point, I smile, take charge & realize: LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL.”-ttwdc:III
